Hi party people! Happy Wednesday to ya. How is everyone in internet-land? I’m doing alright. Actually, scratch that, I’m doing great. I’m over my melt down from the other day and in a better, re-focused, frame of mind. You know when you’re in a crazy place or maybe stressful is a better word, it’s hard to see the positive aspects. It takes a minute, or in my case, overnight, to see things in a better light. I was bummed (heartbroken) about not really being able to workout. What I should have been focusing on was using this time to focus on eating correctly. It’s going to be beneficial not just to myself, but to others. I’m studying to be a personal trainer (!!!) and if I have crappy/less than stellar eating habits, how can I help someone with theirs? Do as I say, not as I do? Not a great reflection. And I can still do arm workouts so I’m not totally out of the loop. I really like the relationships I’ve built there and I really do enjoy working out. Crazy I know! So, while I can’t lift weights right now (boo!), I can work on other facets of being healthy and losing weight. (No more tears…well for right now. Sorry Jake!) Thanks to everyone who listened to me cry, whine, stress out, be unhappy, etc this past week. You are all priceless to me. Always.
Other news that has me happy and dancing in the streets – I have a lap! I was at the doctor yesterday and while I was waiting for him to come in the room, I looked down and notice I have a lap! Holy shit. It completely caught me by surprise. I quickly grabbed my phone, snapped a picture, and uploaded it to Instagram and Facebook. It’s one of those things that probably doesn’t phase the everyday person, but a huge accomplishment to someone who hasn’t had a lap in, oh I don’t know….ever? It’s these little things that amount to big things. Crossing my legs without thinking about it. Not getting winded putting on my shoes (that’s sad!). Walking around, keeping up with others, and not gasping for breath all at the same time. Wearing clothes in much smaller sizes. These have all happened and it blows my mind each time I notice it. It’s joyful and makes me thankful for everything.
Going back to my doctor visit – I have a foot/ankle injury that I’ve ignored or pushed aside for quite a while. (about a year) I’ve been to the doctor, got referred to another doctor, had an MRI, a few x-rays, and ended up with a great doctor. He very matter of fact told me I needed to have surgery and it was going to completely rock my world and turn it upside down. This was around the end of summer last year or something like that. I told him I didn’t want to do anything that was going to keep me from working out so we pushed the surgery back a while. And have kept pushing it back because it meant being off my foot, no weight bearing AT ALL, for at least 3 months. Three months?!?! He thought he was going to have to fuse my foot and all this other stuff, but at yesterday’s appointment he doesn’t think he’ll have to do a fusion after all!!! Woot, woot! He’ll just have to clean up the bone fragments, bone spurs, do some scoping and that’s it. So we’re looking at being off my foot for 3 weeks instead of months. Hallelujah, praise Jesus. The only drawback on the foot surgery is that I have to fix my knee first. What? My knee. Yep. On the same leg no less! I really don’t know what I’ve done to injure it, but I haven’t been smart and I’ve continued to work out only to make it worse. I’m a bit hard headed. This past Saturday took the cake and rest assured, I’m not doing anything that involves over working my knees. (Hence only doing arm stuff in the gym) I have my knee appointment on the 19th and I’ll know something more at that time. Maybe there’s just some cartilage floating around in there that needs to be removed. Easy, peasy. Then we’ll get the foot taken care of and I’ll be good as new! While it’s been an inconvenience I know how much worse it could be. I am very blessed in the fact that I can still walk, move around, all that good stuff. It’s just a minor set back and I can deal with it gracefully.
Losing weight isn’t an overnight achievement. It takes time. It’s multifaceted and a lot of damn work. It’s a lot to figure out but one thing I know and have figured out is – It’s so completely worth it.
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Yay Sara!!!! I absolutely love this post! So full of happies and accomplishments! You work so hard. Congratulations on every step you’ve made so far! Looking forward to celebrating even more!!!!